I understand that my last post was complete mush, but it was 3am and to be honest I actually have no memory of typing half of that stuff. It was quite interesting to wake up later that morning and find that my laptop was on my blog page with a brand new blog on it, when I hadn't posted in a month. So of course I had to read what gobbledegook I'd written and of course it just made me miss him all over again. I went to his house later that day though.
Sooo many things have happened in the past month since my last post before the mushy one. My brother had his 15th birthday, Paul and I are growing closer than ever, we had our 6 month anniversary, we played pool with Evan after going Christmas shopping, oh and probably most eventfully, Jayne and I are no longer friends.
Quite a long story that one, and one that I just really can't be bothered typing it all out, but basically we had more problems, and anyone who knows me knows that I despise conflict, so as a result, our past conflicts were never fully resolved, although as I learnt, to Jayne, they had been. So anyway, essentially, cause something (I can't remember what) happened, something that was just the final straw, and so we had one final argument. One where I ended up bringing up all the things from the past that I felt were unresolved (to which her response was "if you're just going to bring things up from the past that we've already resolved then I have nothing to say". It's just so lovely when a friend refuses to talk to you about something that's still bothering you), and some new things which she actually had the gall to turn around to me and tell me that how I was feeling about those things was "silly" and "ridiculous". Can you imagine how that made me feel? Let's just say that nothing but anger followed after that.
So she blocked me, cause the entire time she was whining about the fact that it was 10:30 when I brought this up (it was the only time I could I would like to mention, for as far as I can recall she was actually playing a game the whole time before that, or I didn't get home until late or something like that), and that if I wanted to talk about it we could talk about it in the morning when our heads were clear. Now, my head was perfectly clear, I knew exactly what I was saying, but she kept insisting and that was just adding insult to injury. SO yeah, in the end to get her way, she blocked me. That was the last time that I've spoken to her on MSN.
I emailed her soon after saying some crap that I don't remember, and then again the next day reminding her that she still has two of my DVDs and if she could return them in the next two weeks. I get one back saying something like she could be jetting off to Paris for 3 months tomorrow and I wouldn't know, basically telling me off for setting a time frame, so naturally I came back with well if you couldn't do it in that time then I assume that you would have told me instead of just being a bitch about it (in different words, but those were the feelings behind it). Long story short, I still don't have them back. So now I'm tempted that next time I'm out that way I'll just drop in and take them, I don't give a fuck if she has company or not. Or I'll just email her again, whatever.
But anyway, back to happy things. Like I said, my brother had his 15th birthday this month. I had to work that morning, but after that I went and picked up Paul and got his present (I was stashing it at Paul's house) and Paul and I went back to mine to give him his present. Now I should explain. Paul wrapped his present, but before he put the wrapping paper on it, he covered it with 6 layers of newspaper. Oh it was so amusing to see my brother turning dinosaur and rabid as he got frustrated with all the newspaper XD I haven't laughed that hard in a very long time. But in the end he got it all off. We got him Left 4 Dead on Xbox 360, and it's co-op so he and mum played it that night. Gosh it was funny watching. There's a ledge that if you fall off it you have to have a team member help you back up. My brother just kept running off it for shits and giggles and having a team member pull him back up XD Good times.
I have an Xbox 360 of my own now! Paul got his new one and although I'm still owing him $100 for getting this one off him, he gave it to me early as a graduation present, as well as a copy of Assassin's Creed which he bought for me a while ago. Oh how I do so love presents <3 But anyway now I can use it to watch all the movies that I have on my HHD, on my TV. It's so nifty! ;D I love my gorgeous pookie. He's so amazing to me.
I finished college this semester too, apart from finishing getting my hours up, but I don't have to go into the college anymore. That thought both scares and excites me. I am arranging something through a customer at work to finish off my hours, which is hella exciting, but again very scary.
I've actually been thinking for a long time that I might like to get into counselling. I loved the communication classes that I had to do for my course this time round, and I love helping people and talking them through there problems. I've been told that I'm pretty good at it too. I can be very insightful at times, as Callum can attest to. So that might be on the cards for future study for me. Maybe even a future career if I ever get sick of this massaging lark (which I highly doubt, but I may have it as a side career, who knows? I could be the first ever counselling masseuse! ;D) So yes, I'll have my official graduation at the end of this year once I complete my clinic hours. Suncorp stadium, caps and gowns, the whole shebang ;D I can't wait and hope that all my loved ones (including my lovely boyfriend) will be there to support me. I might end up with a plus 15 the way I'll be inviting people ;D
But anyway, last week I finished off my Christmas shopping. Evan, Paul and I all went out to Morayfield shopping centre to buy our final presents. I just had to buy for Paul, and he for me, and Evan started as just a welcome tag-a-long but then he ended up buying a present for his dad. We went to Spencer's Gifts, and there's this adorable little panda-shaped lamp that I want to get. Hellooooo next payday ;D
Although I'm not entirely sure that I would be able to get it next payday cause Paul and I are hosting a new years eve party at my house. The awesome thing is that Mum and my siblings will be overseas, and Dad will pretty much just stay inside and keep to himself. I'm getting really excited about it too, cause I'm planning on cooking at this party, yummy things like roast chicken drumsticks and Greek salad and coconut pavlova roll and rum balls and all these exciting things. And better still my gorgeous friend Callum is up from Melbourne and will be attending, so the plan is that I pick him up from the station earlier in the day and we spend the whole day cooking laughing and having fun. General preparing for this thing. We're gonna have so much fun ;D
But anyway, I'm excited for Christmas in 4 days ;D Paul and I have a plan so far of me staying at his house that night, breakfast at his, lunch at mine and dinner wherever. I had the other idea of us staying at our own houses, with breakfast being eaten where we were, then lunch together at mine and dinner together at his, but then I felt sad cause I wanted the joy of waking up next to the man I love on Christmas morning.
Anyway, that's all I have probably for another month haha.
xx